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I can't fight this..why? [Jan. 21st, 2007|09:47 pm]
Those who embrace eating disorders


[mood |crushedcrushed]

I went on birth control, and I've been a balloon ever since.

I don't understand why I just can't lose 10-15 pounds. I'd be happy at just 125. It's the first day back to school tomorrow, and I can't wear what I want to because my fat rolls have a tendency to stick out everywhere. I always feel like people are watching me, noticing how much weight I've gained. I hate the way I look so much, and it's hard to feel comfortable in large crowds.

Now I get migranes if I wait too long between meals. But how is it possible to minimize the amount of calories I'm eating if I don't have a large gap between meals? Should I just eat approx. 250 cals at a time? I have NO idea anymore, but if I don't lose weight relatively soon, I will not even be able to go to my boyfriend's formal.

Nor will I be able to shop for a dress. I refuse.

By the way, I've missed you all..